Estimated return to work day

This morning, my phone beeped at me and showed what is on the calendar for today - "Estimated return to work".  I started working last week. I am still working part time from home. The MD did determine a date for me to return to work full time, but I don't know what that date is at this point.

I admit it, anxiety is setting in. Today my mind is feeling a bit like a snow globe - someone keeps shaking it, the snow keeps swirling around.

To do lists are making an appearance in my life again - call about this or that, remember to do this or that. *sigh*  Soon I will have to leave my cozy nest every day.

It is time to return, although honestly, I am having a difficult time defining and describing exactly what I am returning to. Normal life? Typical life? The same old routine? It isn't quite out with the old and in with the new. It is a passage and interestingly enough it coincides with the arbitrary determination of a new year. And with the more eternal and cosmic turning of the earth and the return of the sun.

Rhythms and cycles... I sense a theme.

And what to do with the blog? I started it so that I could keep all of you informed about my recovery and have a record of my recovery. Now that recovery is coming to and end, or has it? I am becoming more disenchanted every day and where am I now that the enchantment is fading. Do you want to see the blog continue?

The snow globe is shaking and the snow is swirling.